Why it is important to have confidence

Have you ever felt you were at your lowest? Your confidence level went down? You feel like no one is there to help you through something? Well I have. Just last year, yeah I know I sound like I am never happy, but I am, if you ever see me I am smiling. There are just times in my life that I feel would be a good lesson for everyone who reads this and it gives me some sort of relief to tell you all. I am sure that many of you have had times in your life that this has happened to you, or maybe you have not but here is a little advice on what to do.

Remember not to worry, you are not alone. There is ways to get through it and it honestly may be hard for you. But I believe that if i have gotten through difficult times so can you.

I have learned from my experience that someone is always there. You just tend to maybe push people away or you are stuck in those thoughts "I have no one" "I suck at this sport, I ruined it for my team" or "I am not good enough"

In reality, you do have someone there, you do not suck, and you are good enough! You just let go of your confidence or something may have happened in your life that can be the reason you have no confidence or positivity.

If you have not experienced this you may in the future. This can help you. If you do experience this remember do not push everyone away, always be positive and lastly have that confidence. Do not think that you are too confident or too positive because you cannot be too confident or too positive. Being positive or having that confidence makes you better at something and just a better person in general. Never forget that there are people out there that do care about you, you just need to take the time to see that. Whenever you get in that slump come to my blog. Hopefully I can help with my words and maybe even feel free to come to me I will always be here for any of you. This is an important truth to life that I have learned. Have that positive attitude, be confident because it can surely get you through anything you are going through.

Everything Happens for a Reason

Everyone has those times in there lives when they wonder why they are going through something or if they will ever get through it. I have had many but this particular one had me wondering why me, why am i going through this, what is the reason behind it.  I believe it was a sign that I stress to much and it may not be, who knows. You sit there thinking and some day you will figure it out. But it happened for a reason. 
 It was the end of my junior year. I was stressed about every single class. I have stayed up late almost every night studying. Not only was I stressed about finals but also about the ending of my softball season.

Softball ended in February and it was now May. That gives you an idea on how much of an impact it had on me.

It was a Thursday night; I had not been feeling well. My sister and I were home alone while my mom was in Flagstaff about to have surgery the next morning.

I was in so much pain I did not know what to do. I was puking nonstop and I had a sharp pain in-between my ribs. I tried my best ignoring my pain since this has happened to me in the past many times. I have gone to the doctor many times to see what it was but they said it was nothing.

It was 3:00 A.M. I was still in pain. I text my mom and told her what was going on she told me "Just take some medicine and trying going to sleep if you need anything call your aunt" I was able to fall asleep after that. Then it was 5:00 A.M. the time I get ready to go to school. I still felt that sharp pain but this time it moved down to my lower right side of my stomach and this time it was worse I would barely even walk.

I was concerned so I called my dad and he rushed me to the hospital.

We arrived at the hospital and my dad walks in carrying me. Luckily there was no one in the waiting room. Doctors assisted me quickly. They put me in a wheel chair and off I go into a room. They ask me a few questions and tell me what they thought was going on.

Next thing I know I am getting an ultra sound. The doctors say to us "WOW, this is beautiful." I looked at him in pain and anger "what!?" He replied "Your appendix is HUGE!" "Ok, and?" I said in frustration. He replied "You need to go into emergency surgery." I went into tears, scared because I have never had surgery and my mom was not with me.

A few hours later, lying in pain, the doctor comes in and says "your surgery will be at 10:30." It was 9:15 A.M. My aunt is standing next to me and handed me a rosary. "Here mija, this helped me when I almost lost my life."

I was lying in a bed getting ready to go into the room to have surgery, the surgeons assistants tell me I cannot take my rosary with me. So one of the ladies go to ask the surgeon if it was ok to take in with me she comes back and tells me the surgeon says it is ok.” So they tape the rosary to my hand which brightened my face. I felt a little better.

Trying to force my eyes open I see balloons, flowers and people around me. I had my family and my best friend waiting for me to wake up. I did not have the pain I went into surgery in, but maybe it was because I was on pills. As I started waking up my first thought was, "I am ok."